feeling extremely frustrating now but yet still laughing .. anyway listening to Beethoven's Tempest Sonata 3rd Movement right now .. really a nice piece .. can actually hear what's Beethoven was going through when he wrote this shit .. listen to it .. it'll grasp ur soul as if there's a hand squeezing ur soul for 5 minutes and release it for 2 seconds then squeeze it again.. i doubt what i just said but that's what i felt.. i know how i felt trust me .. you dont have to be a fisherman to know how to fish ..
ok so bout my internship .. yeaa finally 12 weeks of low productivity in terms of financial growth has passed !!! yesss... i don really need to work for rm19 per day anymore !! that was a sickening job although it felt fun .. ass those ppl that told me rm500 is a lot for intern .. i'm not there just to learn i do contribute to work too .. just like what the engineers do.. just that i don really havta attend all meetings and sign any documents.. somehow, yeaaa maybe money doesnt really matter in this case.. just that i'd always wanted more money ..hehehe.. met with a bunch of great guys during intern .. heard some malay female engineers dont really liked me though ..coz i always do something stupid called WORKING ! they said i'm acting like my supervisor .. well i do hope they go fuck themselves when free.. with all due respect i do admire them for their capability but please don let emotions work along .. be more professional ... i'm just a trainee .. relax chicks..
and ermm .. yea suddenly felt i'm still loitering in my comfort zone .. i gotta do something bout it .. i suddenly felt that way when i came across Mark Twain's quotation that says "Do something every day that you don't want to do; this is the golden rule for acquiring the habit of doing your duty without pain" .. this quote is super powerful .. plus along with some good humble advices i got from someone i ahh .. how should i say this .. hehehehe .. so yea a lot of thing running through my head these few days .. i mean everything just come together .. i really do feel it's time to do something that would change my life to a better direction .. bukan main telur kat umah tiap2 hari for sure.. gotta focus on my goals instead of the obstacles to achieve them.. coz ppl say u'll bump into things that u focus on .. like those gamblers that win a lot of money .. they never focus of losing ...they kept their minds positive all the time .. trust me , go gamble and don think of losing .. sure u win a lot .. u'll win some new friends that will grafitti your house and kill your dog and wreck ur car(if u have one after gambling) and curse you and threatens you and send you 3M sticky notes saying ' kill you ah if u don pay' ..
and new year is coming ..2010 is ending ..it's been a great year.. lets sit back and watch what's going to happen to this world ..my resolutions , well just as lame as you could wished for .. money, big car, bla bla bla.. just one thing i don wish for.. PRETTY G@L .. coz it came true last year.. eh haehaehaehae.. oh yea.. do wish to be a better person as time goes by..
and please ... forgive my profanity .. i just love to use it at times.. in places like this .. :) u'll see them again if i ever post here. thanks and happy new f*CKin YEAR !
